I have a confession to make.
*takes deep breath*
I haven't been "Focusing on the JOY in Life". There, I've said it.
Honestly I haven't been focused on anything lately. I started Amy Gillard Photography in August of 2011. I was on vacation in the Outer Banks of North Carolina on our annual family vacation and I rounded up all of our friends and loved ones, and even a family of complete strangers! I forced them to let me take family portraits of them to build my portfolio and a business was born. I spent those first few months scared, nervous and completely unsure of myself. I knew that I loved taking photos and I have studied art for as long as I could remember so things like composition, color and texture were just second nature. But I was so terrified of putting up a picture and having it ripped to shreds.
Turns out everyone I know was so encouraging and so loving and supportive. I really couldn't ask for a more wonderful group of people to spend my life with.
Then after a few months, I faltered. I stopped believing in myself and I got a full time job. Oh, I kept Amy Gillard Photography going, but I did it part time. Ever do something like that? I find that I lie to myself. In order to avoid pain and rejection, you sort of make it seem like you don't really care or you are only half invested in it so if it doesn't work out, meh, no big deal.
I'm a coward. I was taking a cowards way out.
I gave my resignation at my job and I am focusing all of my energy on Amy Gillard Photography.
I went through a rough winter. I deleted my facebook account, withdrew from the world and struggled through some pretty hard things. Now coming out on the other end, I feel like I've run a marathon and its my time. Why focus all of my skills and smarts on making someone else's dreams come true instead of taking all of that hard work I'm doing and trying to make MY dreams come true.
I went back and looked at how far I've come in the past 3 years.
(apparently I liked taking pictures of people walking away from me?)
I'd say I've grown into myself. I've developed a style, an ease. I've learned to slow down and really create the shots I want, instead of just capturing what was there in front of me. I've built my confidence and built my skills and now I'm ready to take that plunge.
Look out world! Here I come!
I am starting a great journey and I'd really love it if you would come along with me. Together we can Focus on the JOY in Life!